Reality
[ This Gir| ]
Just a name.
Just a face.
Just a life.
with an alter ego.
[ My Likes ]
Him.
Cats.
mushrooms.
being myself.
my girls
[ My wishes ]
Searching for my identity.
Understanding myself.
Him to be happy.
Everyone to be happy.
Not to lose contact with my girls
[ Musings ]
All our lives we search for someone who makes us complete. We choose partners and change partners. We dance the song of heartbreak and hope all the while,wondering if somewhere,somehow there is someone searching for us.
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Sometimes we never find what we are searching for. Worse, we dont even realise that we need to be searching. We end up, on deathbed, not having lived a life at all.
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Our lives are not determined by what happens to us but by how we react to what happens, not by what life brings to us, but by the attitude we bring to life.
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Monday, December 26, 2005
xmas 2005
geesh sumhow think tt e festivals have lost their significance, meaning, n special feelings associated w each festival as e time goes by. like this yr's xmas for e.g. it was well, just like another ordinary day i guess.
town was packed, as usual. but sumhow e lightings arent as pretty, and xmas didnt seem as nostalgic/ family-ish/warm/ special/ pathetic as xmases normally go. it was, just normal. which u guys knoe, is worse then being pathetic for me.
brief summary of xmas eve: movie ( king kong), dinner of pizza n fried chicken at sherbert's hse, watched games of pool n clubbin at double0 cum 0 bar tgt. e clubbin, was worse then it was at zouk mambo - e music freakingly sucked cos it played retro, n evriwan did e square dance thingy again, e crowd was freakingly old as e uncles n ppl in their late twenties thronged e club. guess i was e youngest there omg. everibodi danced happily to e retro,lost in their little world of retro, while e music tt was blasted was retro. omg. i think if u guys were there, ull wld have immediately condemned e bloody place. half way i really cldnt take it anymore, and this experience totally extinguished anymore desire for future clubbins. feel quite guilty for draggin sherbert frm e rest of his pals cos it really sucked, n we walked all e way frm MS to lao pa sha while he sadistically enjoyed telling me ghost stories of his bmt while we walked through bloody deserted alleys where *those-who-must-not-be-named" seemed to appear any moment.
more like celebratin e seventh month can.
anyway this cutest little black kitten jumped on sherbert's lap ( this is literally animal magnestism ) and just fell asleep there, its body vibratin like some motor as it was practically purrin w contentment :) . sweet .
ok, that was all. xmas 2005 came n gone in a flash. get what i mean? sigh. hope cny wldnt b like tt. guess everiwan had a better xmas yup..glad 4 ull- jac, rd ur blog , ting w her mac, cher w ur estee lauder set, hua at her steamboat, val at hk.. hope ul enjoyed it more ok:)
anyway, cheers 2 2005 xmas!
flashbacks of the past [5:50 AM]
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