Reality
[ This Gir| ]
Just a name.
Just a face.
Just a life.
with an alter ego.
[ My Likes ]
Him.
Cats.
mushrooms.
being myself.
my girls
[ My wishes ]
Searching for my identity.
Understanding myself.
Him to be happy.
Everyone to be happy.
Not to lose contact with my girls
[ Musings ]
All our lives we search for someone who makes us complete. We choose partners and change partners. We dance the song of heartbreak and hope all the while,wondering if somewhere,somehow there is someone searching for us.
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Sometimes we never find what we are searching for. Worse, we dont even realise that we need to be searching. We end up, on deathbed, not having lived a life at all.
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Our lives are not determined by what happens to us but by how we react to what happens, not by what life brings to us, but by the attitude we bring to life.
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Tuesday, December 20, 2005
liberty!
ok guys im really sorry i keep changing my blog add, make things such a chore for ull..
but i really wanna set up a new blog to record e new things of a new chapt of my life - e transition from jc to U, leavin a 1 yr relationship, n def growing up in terms of mindset n thinkin..yay! on e journey to search for who i really wanna be, what i really want to do, hence this name!!
i dunno guess im really a restless wonderer, true to my horoscope - e sagittaurus i.e. centaur, alw exploring n needing to think alot abt life and e o abstract things i guess..but i think tt sometimes, too much thinkin will onli lead to more doubts and uncertainties, which CAN be unreal and exaggerated fears..geesh i dunno..but dun u guys felt sth like tt b4?? like sth restless inside u..u wanna go out n search 4 meaninig, not contented w wadeva life u hav now.. or mayb worse, jus drifting, leaving day to day, with short term mediocre goals, unable to break free for e unless monotony that u lose track of e larger picture..but what is e larger pic exactly??
i guess that was 1 reason i broke up w jiesheng..e memories will b there, jus like what e others had left and moved on..of cos there r others, such as i c no future w him long term, n his char cumtimes reli make me jus give up on tryin to cont or communicate w him..but haven been single for a long time, n haven e time to jus sit there and like reflect on things yup? like what do i exactly want?? geesh. another addition to e unanswerable mysteries of e universe.
flashbacks of the past [2:31 AM]
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